Some of this is like...a month old but oh well...
ok...Bad News

1. My boyfriend said he cares about me...but not romantically which broke my heart to pieces, I really did love him...but thats the thing, having insight and me picking up little actions tipped me off...like i started wandering 2 months before and it all fit togatehr in the end...Him not calling, rarely signing on to msn, not anwsaring my messages and the biggest tip off, not switching his Facebook status to "Into a Relationship". Just shows how nice guys finish last

2. I got laid off from my new job, not enough work for me to do so they may or may not call me back when they need a hand. good people and goos salary too AND it was close to my dream job....

3. Stress, so much stress at home, Sister is so paranoid and afraid to go out into the real world it's making my dad bitch [which he does it anyways even without reasons] and mom to get upset or angry
The real problems i see is my dad being a low functioning Autistic man living in the past who didn't get any medical help when he was young and he's acting like his father.
Then my sister being so afraid of the world and getting so distrought on every little bad thing that happens that it's hard to even try to talk to her at times
Mom has had a tough life despite having happy days, her legs, her back and sometimes her ankles hurt like hell and she needs to go rest, doesn't help that she's an overweight diabetic and she drinks cola and eats candy [recently I've been mostly the cause of that which I'm not too happy with myself]
With dad's negative point of life and always knit picking, my sister being so defensive and easily depressed and my mom who gets so tired dealing with all the drama and pressure on everyone it just makes me pissed and upset

4. So many things have been on my mind and stressing me out, doesn't help that i sometimes miss my dosage of pills


Good news

1. I may or may not have a new man in my life...not sure...but distance does not help one bit but I've known him for like...9ish years?

2. Finally busy with things like X-mas gifts and sending stuff to my online mom [finally]

3. I say screw it, I'm dying my hair plum purple, I've been waiting and waiting, finally got permission from my ex-boss and now I'm dying it despite being jobless

4. Been cooking and more active recently, as if a great jolt of energy hits me at times

All in all...good and bad things have happened, maybe more bad then good but we'll see...